As always, I returned to the castle.
I went into one of their rooms and there, protected by its mighty walls, I sat down to rest. I left on the ground
armor, sword and shield.
came from many years of struggle, during which I had to face many battles.
felt that little by little I had been hardened. Not just my armor was strong and enduring hard stakes, but all my being, had been getting numb and stiff, as each fight had kept my heart away from anything that could weaken or cause it to stagger.
I had become a mighty warrior, a few fights intimidate me. I faced them with determination and courage, without flinching.
Many people admired my courage and although this did not mean for me, no pride, I reaffirmed that I was doing the right thing and do it in the most effective.
That was my life jacket. Passed without letting anything put me on his knees, but walked straight to the difficulties, which were hard or much they weigh on my shoulders aching with the rigid armor that covered me.
Now, I was in my castle, I could drop our guard and relax.
The armor, heavy shield and spear which he carried in his hand, lay on the ground as useless pieces of metal.
slept for many hours, left to sleep.
When I awoke, I wanted to join. But all members felt weak and not strong enough. I stayed awake and lying on the bed. The light from the windows went smoothly and everything filled silence.
got dark and dawn again numerous times, and I was still lying idle.
When I finally stood up, I felt different: the body does not weigh me, was light, light.
I looked out the window and I felt to see it first Once things. The recognized, but no longer as before, had changed somewhat. Even I was not like before, I felt different ... so many years had dressed for the fight, which reveals, almost did not recognize me. I had forgotten what it was before this time ...
picked different parts of the armor to Irmela setting, but now felt so clumsy and heavy that I could not colocármelas. It was as if they had never been mine, as if it was strange that I could use and make them my way of life. I grabbed the spear, but felt too big and almost could not handle it. The same happened with the shield was so heavy I could hardly lift it. I had the impression that they were bigger than my whole body and left on the floor.
But there was nothing else. He had nothing else to cover and go back to the life that I expected. Only the armor, shield, spear ... just that. How do I cover now? What I would advocate in the fight? How would win in battle? What would I be without the armor to protect me?. The fear of this thought, was silenced by a new feeling and reasoning that was gnawing at me ever more firmly and clearly, walk with nothing. Nothing would cover my body with nothing would fight or protect me. Would order of battle time!.
The fear was in me, but the decision flowed from my heart with such force and clarity that not one step back I would, only this commitment to life that was clearly implanted in my soul.
I went out and begin to walk, she was naked. Nothing covered my body.
I felt the wind on the skin. The dry grass, I fell upon the foot when stepped on and walk. In the legs, I scratched the bushes, but I kept walking ...
did not know what I expected, what I find, what would I or how would my existence. But something powerful pushes me forward and I did without resistance.
Walked away from the castle for days and days. Gradually, as I walked away, was returning to my being. I felt good, lightweight, quiet, full of strength. Even with fear, but determined. Thousands of feelings inside me were discussed.
Each passing day, I reaffirmed my commitment: walk this way and that nothing would protect me, naked to life. Devoid of all, no weapons or shields. With open hands. With little defense, but my own skin. Walk
without stopping or backing up, but the road was difficult and a thousand times fell or was beaten.
Time passed, my journey did not stop and every time I walked away more of everything and I had been penetrated firmly into this new life. Something subtle and warm
tucked over me so powerful. Never before had I felt like my own strength and energy.
I thought everything was fine, everything fit. Last time I looked back, it was only a moment, and kept walking.
(This experience is why I started life again.) Celeste
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